Why Don’t You Try Harder? (Step 1)

That question has haunted me all my life. Try harder to get organized, clean my desk, stop procrastinating, get things done (GTD), remember to check my todo list. (I even tried the string around my finger.) It would help if I could remember to make a todo list.

I remember when I bought my first DayTimer. Ooooo! It was a radical thing for me to make a to do list, then rank them as A, B, C, etc, etc.

But I have a gremlin in my brain. A grody green gremlin that likes to do things backwards. “Let’s tackle the Cs first,” he says. I get all of the Cs done, then a couple of Bs. Now I’m too tired to tackle the As. I’ll move them to tomorrow’s list. Same thing tomorrow.

It took me months to tackle some of the As. “Why don’t you try harder?” taunts the gremlin.

I’ve got news for you, trying harder doesn’t work. Yoda says, “There is no try,” and he’s right. I’d be a Jedi now if trying harder really worked.

After DayTimers, Seven Habits, Franklin Quest, GTD, and several attempts to “hack” my own brain with various sizes of notebooks, I decided to give up. My life is a mess.

I admit to myself that my life is an unmanageable mess. I am powerless over my problems. I am powerless over chaos, clutter, procrastination, cholesterol, my waistline, cravings, absentmindedness, forgetfulness and plain old amnesia.

All this trying has wiped me out. I give up. I surrender. Uncle!

If I was Jacob at the ford of Jabbok, the angel would win and my brother would cut my head off.

What do you try when trying harder doesn’t work?


About 1heartle

My passion and obsession is with books, reading, life-long learning, libraries, literacy and tutoring. A second passion is public speaking, teaching and powerful presentations. I am always experimenting with new teaching and training methods in an effort to find the most effective way to engage learners.
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